| kinda funni.. when I saw this layout it was called jigoku and im like O; ho snap im so using this xDD
pretty nice layout too. x3
well im not all that obsessed with bleach compared to asuka and erika.
theyre pshyco O-o;;
im like that with hxh so yes <33 sooner or later Ill make a hxh layoiut for one of my xangas xDD
anyways ! I actually updated for the rest of my rantage Dx
what i did today :
stayed home all bored n crap D: theeeeen... uhhh what did i do...?
well my mom kept on lecturing me this whole day.
So I got even MORE pissed. UGHHHHA?:WFHSK!!!
wanted to punch her. thats how pissed I was >[ !
what happen.... mmm.. ate "lunch" @ 6:30 i think. --;; I only ate 2
haichuu looking candy in the morning and nothing else. starved myself.
xDD AHAHAHAH... anyways. [ate coco pebbles O: they taste
awesomerrz <3 lol.]
then for dinner. coco pebbles again! cuz my mom was LAZY AS HELL today!
shes like cook haruka.
and i warn you, I CANNOT COOK. like REEEAL bad. all the stuff i
cooked/baked tasted like SHYT. >__o; i mean honestly. I have no
skills. I dont even know how to cook anything. so im like im like cookin
Then my mom got all moody and prolly PMS or somethin' cuz shes like im
not cooking for you. and blehh so i just ate coco pebbles.
tch I dont care. dont feed me i can survive :[
Thats why I want school back. Then I can see my friends and hang out
with them >w< I stay in school till like 6 ish just talking !
<3 its so much fun X3
but at home i dont do anything but go online. and while im online
TRYING to have fun my mom wants me to do her shyt, making me her slave.
-___-
gawd. its the summer. Im supposed to have fun. What kind of a sick
child wants school!?!? UGHH. I hate my home. Never wanna come back
after I graduate high school. Im so leavin. >[
and yes, end of my rant. >>;;
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| i havent updated in about 2 months Dx daang
i dont really have much to say cuz i updated on haku no yume.
went to anime convention and it was real fun ! ^-^
i was So freakin happy that day <33 nothing actually went wrong.. well except for the pain on my legs and shoulders. XD;;
im messing wit the layout. ignore it if its all messed up Dx
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| |: i despise myself..
im too scared of everything..
id type more but... id get too depressed.. stupid mazes.. stupid puzzles.. i wish they were easier
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| im updating..
damn i suck
i only update here to release so much stress... i should of written here long butt time ago.. :|
but gema and i write to each other.. these "letters" that may seem liek notes to others. we write when we really need one another. like if something happened to make us cry or to depress us we try helping each other.
yeah.. idk.. i like talking to those who have problems so i can help them..
to me i feel liek im an existance.. if they keep needing me, that means if i die.. they'll go crazii cuz they need me.. it makes me feel like im something useful for once. i love it.. i can help someone..
but today i felt so weak.. and i realize i saved nobody.. its meanlingless for my life to go on.. but i fear everything because im afraid to die.. im DEAD scared to die.. because i kno ill go to hell right now if i was to die.. and.. hell is scary... its not normal what hell is.. its so gross that you cant even imagine it.. it is what I 'believe' but to me thats whats real..
but .. today when i told gema how weak i felt... and how i cant even save anyone i always drag someone else cuz im weak..
gema: people who need saving give the savers a reason to live
when she told me that.. my heart skipped a beat.. my eyes teared and ugh.. i never felt so 'saved' in my life..
life is so precious..
out of all my phobias.. i think to lose my precious 'treasures' is the most horrible one..
those treasures are you <3
i <3 you so much <3333 |
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| yeah its been a while... ive been MAD FKN PISSED
omg
liek this entire week prolly ive been pissed
IS IT PMS NO ITS NOT
WHY THE HELL DO I HAVE TO GO THRU THESE PROBLEMS!! GOD!!
im so pissed... why the hell do i have to go thru crap liek this? ok i
kno ppl has gone thru WAY more than i have ever gone thru. i kno that.
but im going thru shit that half of it is not my problem and im still
getting into it. i wish i can forget everything. juss somehow get
amnesia or something.. cuz i cant go thru crap liek this
why
my parents cant understand anymore. i hate those friggen lectures they
give me. pretend im listening and ignoring it!? ATLEAST I LISTEN TO
THAT CRAP EVERY TIME SHE YELLS AT HOW HORRIBLE AND A BICTH I AM
omg you ppl seriously dont have to read this. juss forget it. pretend
joo nvr read it. dont freak out. im juss writing to get this all out.
DAYUM
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